if this stays here i went through with it
sorry i didnt keep my promise

its you, its always you.

I miss it so much

theres another flood at the door and i dont know her name anymore im constantly reminded that things arent what they seem but i dont remember asking .still going on about fingertips and those hushed touches no one knew but now theres less consonance in it ; my lungs can collapse but youll have to click the read more to figure out why im established and constructed with your needs in mind 

maybe one day ill be middle class 

i dont rmeember the last time i laughed and that can either be because im trying to forget or im done running

when do i get to stop crying

I don’t exist

How do people have friends without going through a complete emotional collapse after every interaction online or off because of the emotional pressure of not telling anyone anything ever even when the opportunity presents itself